my mind is a blur. i think i have been offered a job working for an amazing person… yet i am freaked out. i don’t really know what to think at the moment. off and on i discussed the job with people all day. they all gave me their opinions. now i need to figure out what i want. what do i want to do. sigh. i miss the days when things were less confusing, and i could just look to my parents to help me make those decisions. now its up to jon and i. and if we screw up, we screw up. but then again, this could be the chance of a lifetime. so i feel like i should go for it. but i’m going to sleep on it. we’ll see what tomorrow brings.